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| In a glimpse of an eye..
Easter holiday just passed in a glimpse of an eye.
3 weeks of holiday is now over. It felt as though it was just yesterday that I was hyped up about holidays.
This year's easter was totally different from last year.
Easter started with my 22nd bday celebration (which was AWESOME) and all the lovely friends around. 
Spend the whole of easter in UK, had plans for Barcelona but due to certain reasons we decided not to go, which turned out to be a good decision as about a week ago i realised i have an assignment due next week.
Employment law is a bitch. Its so boring I cant even describe it.
3000 word essay due in 3 days time, and I havent even typed out a single word.
Is the assignment that hard or isit just me?
maybe I just have this funny feeling because its the last semester of Uni.
Horrible feeling. I dont wanna graduate just yet.... or so I think..
But then again, there's so much planned for the future, graduation in July, Bar school in September..
-oh, did I mention, I got accepted into Manchester Bar school just last week despite my last minute application.. thanx to my 2 friends I actually got it done the 2nd time around as i missed the first application dateline and I was praying for the best. my mum really wanted me to get in bar sch.. So yes, thank god i got it.
And there you see.. more future plans..
Now i need to meet the requirements for Bar sch.. 
No more slacking and yet i wasted the last 2 hours on youtube and reading articles unrelated to law.
*sighhh...
Today someone just made me realise my general knowledge just sucks. REAL bad.
I live in my own little 'perfect' world, not knowing whats actually happening around the world, the current news, economy situations, political views and little did i know about history.
Due to that, my new favourite site is Times online. 
I shall make up for whatever I missed and will keep myself updated on recent happenings.
Lets hope i keep this up.. you think i can?  hahahaa..
OOk.. I need to get back to work.. say goodbye to sleep darlingg...
"eelin, u MUST at least start typing something out tonite!".. yes yes..
*times like this, white coffee and fags are just so good..
If I do post something else after this, means im bored or got totally distracted.
-maybe the changes that occured since my absence in blogging?.. lol
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| Broken
Im just not in the mood to post pictures from my bday or from the current roadtrip..
so all the 'happy happy' outings will just have to wait abit longer..
Sometimes the most unexpected things hurts the most.
after all the relationships, people i tend to trust the most and love the most hurt me the most.
and this time it was just to another extent.
Really broke my heart.
how can people whom i thought love me chose to believe the worst in me.
the choice to believe i can bring out the worst in me and I would actually behave that way.
things that usually anyone that knows me, nevertheless those whom i love would know that I would never do such things as it just wasnt me to be that way.
taking one step back,apologising for the way things turned out, wasnt even enough..
what else is there left to do when a relationship u thought meant the world to you somehow just doesnt seem that way from the other side..
Is there a point trying to save something if it is one sided?
Maybe i am a bad hearted person afterall, someone not meant to be missed and not meant to be treasured.
Maybe they decided to walk away, maybe the love just wasnt there anymore..
Irregardless of how much i want to try fix this, i dont know whether i can. The feeling is just numb.
Hurt me more than i ever expected.
However the love was with no regrets
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